Personality Is Everything

I’ve somehow managed to lose my medication and my pill between my mums house in Sheffield and my flat in Lincoln… not happy.

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I hate weed

I took it about 5 times last year and now my brains fuck.

I’m totally and utterly paranoid about everything.

Particularly about being watched through windows, or people walking into my house, and especially something happening to my boyfriend. Every time I’m away from him I worry about his safety, and it’s got worse in that past couple of months.

To my fair, my thyroid is acting up and I have had stress from university, so hopefully it will subside soon.

I genuinely hope it does.

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I wouldn’t carve our names in a tree, I’d plant a tree the day we got married or our first year anniversary

(Source: beforeidie, via alex-loves-james)

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So, I’ve finished my first year of uni and none of it’s gone right, apart from meeting ‘the one’.

I’m majorly sure I have failed a module meaning I’ll have to either resit it or re-do the year.

I’ve been ill with my thyroid again and my granddad died.

If I didn’t have Ed, I don’t know what I’d be doing right now, truly.

And for some reason I feel guilty or reading and playing sims, like i should be doing something else, like working, instead of enjoying myself so I’m not even enjoying myself.

I’m not allowed to do sports I’m not allowed to strain myself, which basically means I’m not allowed to do anything I enjoy. And I’m not allowed in the sun or in heat, which a month ago I wouldn’t have been too bothered but because Ed loves the sun, I’m coming around to liking it too. Not “omg I like it because you like it” just more, I’m not dying to get out of the sun when I’m distracted by him and us having fun.

Strange.

BUT I REALLY WANT MY PROMISE RING! He ironically promised me lol

Hope everyone has had/ is having a great day :)

Love you guys